Spoiled, growing up with divorced parents

Growing up I was always spoiled. I often said it was because my parents(who divorced when I was 5)competed to find the best presents. While this was true, the best gift of all was that for ten years after I was able to have both parents on holidays. I knew this was an incredible thing since no one I knew with divorced parents had such an arrangement. I was blessed to have parents who were amazing that way. I know it was because BOTH made such a strong effort to do so. I know that no matter how much one person tried it would not work without both trying. One parents wishes alone would never have been enough.
They worked better after they were divorced than they did when they were married. My mom had us most the time, but allowed my dad to take us anytime that worked. He was never late to pay child support, & was consistently there for us. Most of all on Christmas & other holidays & special days, my dad came early in the morning. For Christmas he was there for us to open gifts, & would stay with us the entire day, even coming to to my Mom's family's house for Christmas diner. Both making an extraordinary effort, giving us the best of both of them. We didn't feel we missed out on anything & didn't have to choose, or have it decided for us. That was better than any gift they could buy! Now I am even more grateful since my dad died very young. I am so glad I had those times with both of them, & was able to spend more time with both my parents than I would have been able to separately, & that is greater than anything I could have ever been bought.

Happy December Birthdays

This month is filled with Birthdays, I hope it's a great day for everyone!

To the Princesses, love you both lots &

I was so glad to be able to come to your party, it was so fun even with all the snow!

Too much, too fast, now so stuck

On Thanksgiving day as I stayed home alone again, unable to get beyond my stubborn body. I decided to ask for the most help I've dared thus far, & that courage took days to muster. I wanted to sit by Christmas, & hopefully avoid missing another holiday w/my family. It was brave, but didn't seem huge, like a brace to help me sit up, not w/out pain, just to sit up. Just to try, if it didn't work at least something new would be ruled out.
I was very wrong, my calls left me unsure of what I should do when I'd usually go in again. I'm now on a 5 month waiting list for a pain clinic...not the problem most urgent, & many holidays & a vacation away that I had hoped to be part of. I'm beyond frustrated, & left to start over w/someone new. To start over w/finding answers, & everything else on my own. Not a 1st, but sad since this Dr had helped me so much, & I had hope for more, but now...I guess I gotta believe there is someone out there that will be willing to try & help me again.

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